First Post. Christmas Eve 2011. I always begin my day just like everyone else.. checking facebook mobile from bed. I got on my smartphone this morning and scanned thru all the new posts. Most people mentioned Christmas or Christmas Eve and some of the gifts they have opened already. A lot of people received a Kindle Fire.. nice job, Santa!
As I lie in bed, I start to reflect on Christmases of my childhood. The memory of the actual gifts I received is a little fuzzy, but I vividly remember my feelings. Feelings of disappointment and resentment.. Wow! I instantly felt ashamed as I remembered. My family didn't have as much money as other families in town, and I usually didn't get the absurd and expensive items on my wish list, but Santa gave me the most he could! It must have killed Santa to see how ungrateful I was.
Most days, I am extremely aware and thankful of the blessed life I lead. I'm thankful for my job, the food I enjoy, the clothing I choose, and especially for the relationships that I have and continue to build. Of course I have my days where I catch myself having ungrateful thoughts.. I sometimes even say those thoughts out loud.. I want to slap myself those days. Tonight, on Christmas Eve, I know I will be genuinely grateful and happy to receive socks! Socks that I picked out for myself and stuffed into my own stocking! :)
Anyway, I decided to start this blog because I don't have a diary. I wanted to have an area to reflect or vent and to give in to my narcissistic nature.
